On Secrets

I want to give you the full picture I promised. You have to understand that the full picture isn't pretty, and does not seem conducive with making money, or receiving more support from the general public. But, I think it's important to tell the truth somewhere. And since I can't tell it on social media… Continue reading On Secrets

On Desire (revisited)

In honor of the last day of my daily writing challenge, I am reconnecting with the same topic I wrote about on the first day: desire. Here's the original post. That day, I asked an important question. Can desire be trusted? Here are a few things I've learned about desire this month: 1) Desire is… Continue reading On Desire (revisited)

On Real Conversations

Tonight I actually forgot that I was supposed to write a post. I worked so hard today, doing way too many things with way too much vigor. I wrote a vision/outline for a new podcast I'm starting in January, sent the stems (raw audio files) for a live album I recorded at a festival in… Continue reading On Real Conversations

On Driftwood

This morning my grandma and I woke up in the darkness at 6am to shoot a music video. We wouldn't have done this, except we were walking along a remote beach last week, and came across this abandoned homestead made of driftwood. There once was a community of people living here, my grandma said: I… Continue reading On Driftwood

On Teaching

I don't often get to talk about my teaching, even though it is arguably the most important thing I do. People usually ask what shows I'm playing next, and how the album recording is coming along, but they don't really ask me how my 15-year old student is doing on her new composition, or if… Continue reading On Teaching

On Body Image

I'm a female musician. That means that in addition to being an incredible musician, I have to be beautiful and toned to be respected. When male hosts introduce me before I come onstage, they often say "the beautiful and talented Siena," as if somehow saying that I'm beautiful is an adequate introduction to my music.… Continue reading On Body Image

Two Truths

Trigger warning: abuse and body image issues. As I read these two journal entries I wrote 6 years ago, I am reminded of how we can hold so many truths within ourselves at once. How we can be fully in our power, and fully outside of it at the same time. I am especially reminded… Continue reading Two Truths